{FORWARD-DATED TO TOMORROW}

[bentflame]

I don't know why these persistent posts about families and parents annoy me so much. It's not like I'm jealous. Or maybe I am; I wouldn't know. I don't tend to self-analyze-- it's pointless. So few people realize that when you start to feel something stupid or messy, the best thing to do is to just ignore it, especially if it's about something that can't be changed or helped. I can really only think of one example of when paying attention to "feelings" has paid off, but we're not going to talk about that. It's been rehashed far too much here; I think it's time to discuss something new.

I could just go back to the Fire Nation. I don't know why I haven't yet. I say it's because I want to be careful and cautious, but really, I have no doubt that I could escape again if he is just trying to trick me-- which he isn't. And everything was going perfectly during my first week as Fire Lord; it was only after I found out he had turned against me that it started to go bad. If he does turn back again, I'm going to be very mad at myself for wasting this time I could have had.

I'll go back if I get kicked out. Though really, I've been considering leaving before that can happen; that'll make things less complicated. I was irritated when Kaito temporarily lost his memories of this place, and I don't even like Kaito. It's ridiculous (not to mention embarrassing) how much of an aversion I have to being left alone and abandoned. It's something that I really need to get over-- preferably sooner rather than later, because you don't just let random people stay in your house for undetermined periods of time. Sooner or later she'll be looking for an excuse to get rid of me, if she isn't already-- even though I stocked her cabinets with excellent Fire Nation tea. What would you call that, a bribe? I don't know.

At least I have Father; that's really all that matters. Who cares if he probably only supports me because he's been brainwashed? I certainly don't. It's the end that matters, not the means.

I'm very good at convincing myself of things. It's one of my many strengths.

OOC: There's a chance I'll be wicked busy tomorrow, and I wanted to have at least one post for this virus, so. DX

Comments

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

Aren't you talkative today...

[pandorabox]

...

You were irritated when I lost my memories because you have an aversion of being left alone and abandoned?

since this is forward-dated, have her with the virus, too!

[vanessa19white.livejournal.com]

There's nothing wrong with having an aversion to being left alone or abandoned. I understand that.

Audio - Virus'd

[knifeurrib.livejournal.com]

You actually scare me a lot more then I let on. Which is stupid, because I shouldn't let the world affect me this much - nothing else really matters to me, I guess. For most of my life it's been you, Ty Lee, and Zuko. And my parents, but they only ever wanted me to be the perfect child (even if they do love me) and that... well, that just made thigns harder for me.

Sometimes I wonder if we're actually still friends or if it would've been better to not actually... I don't know. I'm not sure how to talk about this. I've never been good at expressing feelings. Usually I just bottle them up... not sure why I'm so talkative today, anyway.

[shinra-pwnsjoo.livejournal.com]

It happens.

[fierysire.livejournal.com]

The end is what matters, not the end.

virus'd

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

You scare me; but I do like you. It's just--when you get mad, I don't know if you're going to do something. I know you say that you won't and get grumpy when I say that but I still think it.

I guess that's why I like you so much. You can dominate people like that and people don't take me seriously enough to have that kind of effect. It's just--I don't know how to put it. I don't care for you just because of your power, your money, or even your looks. It's the way you handle people.