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[bentflame]

... I can still remember.

I don't know whether I want this to all go away or not. The uncertainty is ridiculous. There shouldn't be any question as to what the best path is- obviously, the memories should leave me again. Things are so much easier that way; I can completely focus my attention on winning this war, with absolutely no distractions- even temporary ones. The entire concept of wanting to "relax" sometimes was foolish from the start.

And yet...

She came to see me yesterday, just briefly, and we talked. Only about minor things really, but it was... nice.

Comments

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

No, I mean excluding what I said about your sisters, and how I called you worthless.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

It hurt when you left. That's what I mean.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... All right.

...

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This is confusing. I dislike confusing things.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I don't want to confuse you.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

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I didn't want to hurt you.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

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I know. It was best...for you, though.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

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Icareaboutyou,too.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

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Iknow. Iloveyou.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... Yes.

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You called me a wuss. And a monster.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I know. I'm sorry, Azula.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

You were... correct. Especially about the...

Look, I was acting like a "wuss". It was pathetic.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

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I'm sorry, Azula. ...You aren't pathetic and you aren't a..wuss.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Well, of course I'm not.

... But I did act like one.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...Oh. If you...say so.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... You agreed. You recognized the weakness even when I failed to see it.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...Oh, Azula.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Hm?

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I was angry...I didn't know what I was saying.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Hm.

... From what I've experienced, you are often the most truthful when you're angry.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...Oh. I am?

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

You're less... guarded.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I didn't think I was guarded.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

You claimed that you "didn't know what you were talking about" when you called me on my weakness.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

Oh...

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Hm.