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[bentflame]

... I can still remember.

I don't know whether I want this to all go away or not. The uncertainty is ridiculous. There shouldn't be any question as to what the best path is- obviously, the memories should leave me again. Things are so much easier that way; I can completely focus my attention on winning this war, with absolutely no distractions- even temporary ones. The entire concept of wanting to "relax" sometimes was foolish from the start.

And yet...

She came to see me yesterday, just briefly, and we talked. Only about minor things really, but it was... nice.

Comments

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...Oh, Azula.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Hm?

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I was angry...I didn't know what I was saying.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Hm.

... From what I've experienced, you are often the most truthful when you're angry.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...Oh. I am?

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

You're less... guarded.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I didn't think I was guarded.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

You claimed that you "didn't know what you were talking about" when you called me on my weakness.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

Oh...

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Hm.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...yeah.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

...

...

You can tell the truth.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...Azula, I'm ot like you. I don't...think like you. I can't come up with an explanation for everything I do like you can.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... You think that I can? Trust me, when it comes to things like this, I-

Tsk.

Look, I- hm.

...

...

I'm not a wuss. Even if I acted like one.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...Okay, Azula. I don't think you are one now, anyways.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... Not now, no.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...Azula, I didn't mean to hurt you. I honestly didn't.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

All right, fine, I realize that. I'm simply saying that, while you recognize that I'm not being a "wuss" now, you also recognized when I was being one before- but you only accused me of it because you were angry. Other times you've kept quiet, probably because you were afraid of starting something.

...

... And I didn't get hurt.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

....

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

What is it?

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I don't know what to say.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Why not?

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I don't know.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

You have no thoughts at all about the explanation I gave you?

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I have thoughts on it but, um, I totally don't know how to put it.