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[bentflame]

... I can still remember.

I don't know whether I want this to all go away or not. The uncertainty is ridiculous. There shouldn't be any question as to what the best path is- obviously, the memories should leave me again. Things are so much easier that way; I can completely focus my attention on winning this war, with absolutely no distractions- even temporary ones. The entire concept of wanting to "relax" sometimes was foolish from the start.

And yet...

She came to see me yesterday, just briefly, and we talked. Only about minor things really, but it was... nice.

Comments

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I was being pathetic, and ridiculous, and weak. And it wasn't the first time, either.

No.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

No. No, Azula.

...I thought I always sound stupid, though.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

...

...

I was practically begging. And as I said, that was just that one incident. I've said- and done- other things, too. It's just not... right.

... Well, I never said that. At least not that I can remember. I don't think you sounded stupid.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...

...look, you only did that because I was doing something wrong.

.You call me an idiot all the time.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

My point still stands. And besides, that wasn't the only incident.

... Not all the time.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

It was my fault, Azula. My fault.

A lot, though.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I...

I'm not sure that I really believe that you think that. I'm not going to hurt you if you don't, you know.

...Anditwasn'tyourfaultwhenIcriedinfrontofyou. Thatcan'tbeblamedonanythingbutmyowntemporaryfoolishness.


...

...

You're not an idiot, Ty Lee.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I know you wouldn't. You said you wouldn't.

...

I don't know if you really think that.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Exactly. So you don't need to... I don't know.

... Right.


I'm telling the truth.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...I'm not trying to do anything.

You call me stupid a lot, though...and if you think I'm stupid...

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... I was weak.

If I think you're stupid, what?

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...No, sh. You weren't.

Then I'm an idiot.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... How would you know?

Ty Lee.

You're not an idiot.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

I don't know.

...Everyone thinks I'm one.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Exactly.

Well, that's doubtful.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

But I can't think big thoughts, though. And a lot of words confuse me.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... I'm not quite sure what you want me to tell you.

[hotpinkaura.livejournal.com]

...I don't know, either. I'm sorry.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

It's all right.

... I suppose we'll simply have to agree to disagree on that, then. You think yourself stupid even though I don't- much in the same way that I consider some of my previous actions to be weak even though you don't. Despite the fact that they were.