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[Azula's sitting out on the hotel suite's balcony, enjoying the night air and looking contemplative]

[she's fingering a necklace-- a simple gold chain-- that some might recognize as one that she always wears under her clothing, and in her hand is a hand-held tape recorder]

[she presses the "play" button, and her own tinny-sounding voice comes out of the little speakers:]

Say something.

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"Okay... hi, little machine thing. ... Okay, that just sounded stupid. Is that enough, Azula?"

[Azula rewinds; she plays the recording a few more times before setting the device down and staring off into the night]

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It means I have more friends than you'd be comfortable having. I have what would be too many friends for you, not what are too many friends for me.

It has nothing to do with being comfortable. I'm not scared to have too many friends, it's just that it's a waste of time.

Except that how many friends you have or want to have tends to be more an emotional thing. It's kind of hard to choose whether someone becomes a friend or not.

I certainly can choose my friends. Even if someone likes me, I don't have to like them back.

... Okay, I think I see why we're not making sense to each other. It's hard to explain, especially to someone as guarded with their emotions as you are, because for me at least it's not easy to even think about intellectually, much less articulate.

It's clear what you mean. You think I can't control my own thoughts about people.

No, I'm saying that maybe you can, but I can't, which is why I seem to be having trouble explaining what I mean.

Though honestly I've never really been as in control of my emotions as I pretended. If I did I'd probably still be a chimera.

You don't consider me a friend, do you?

Not... quite, no. Probably closer to one than you'd like me to admit.

[Locked, because he has a feeling she wouldn't really like this coming out]
... I still remember your Shadow saying that you liked me, even if you didn't care about me. Though I've probably screwed that right up by now.

My Shadow was an idiot.

They both were.

Unfortunately mine at least knew more than I'd really rather admit.

Mine didn't know me at all.

If you say so.

[And yes, he knows she's worked out that this is one of his "I don't believe you" answers by now.]

Don't be condescending, you ignorant brat.

Don't call me an ignorant brat.

Then stop acting like one!

You insist people don't know you if they've only spoken to you over the community. Maybe you should try applying that to yourself sometime.

[...]

Or I suppose you could do it the other way around.

You don't get it!

Don't I?

I can't know you properly over just the community - which means you can't know me, either.
You know me just fine - which means I'm perfectly capable of knowing you, too.

Which is it?

No you're not because I don't tell you.

And yet you never give a thought to what I might not be telling you.

You might think I was better off when I could be called a "heartless swordsman" and like it, but you don't want to meet me like that.

You don't know what I've been through - but I know enough of what you have to know that it's more like yours than you think.

... You couldn't have killed me.

You never even saw me fight when I was a chimera. How do you know?

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