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[bentflame]

{LOL LOCKFAIL} She loves me.

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...

Hm.

I will have to consider this idea a bit more, it seems. It's difficult too... expel from my thoughts at times. Thankfully it hasn't distracted me from my duties, but occasionally during my downtime it'll just... "hit me", I suppose one would say. It's always quite unexpected, though not entirely... unpleasant. It's a... well. It's a nice thought, really.

One thing that I unfortunately am having a bit of trouble with is remembering that it all could dissipate at any moment, without any warning. The first time I was unprepared, which was a mistake- it caused me to react in a very embarrassing and wholly unacceptable manner. I had made similar slip-ups in the past, but none of that magnitude- and I am quite unhappy that it went that far before I fully realized what I was doing. Have I really grown so... hm.

... Despite this, I truly do care for her. Love her. Very much. It's almost... more emotion than I know what to do with, really; certainly much more than I am used to experiencing. But I must learn to keep the weakness- the additional weakness; the "weird" sort of weakness- out of the picture. {/LOL LOCKFAIL}

I will be turning fifteen not so long from now. Originally, my goal was to have the Avatar captured and destroyed by my birthday, but that was before we made plans to wait for the comet to arrive before launching a full-scale attack. Ideally I would have liked to be crowned Fire Lord beforehand, as well, but I am willing to wait just a little bit longer.

I have never really understood the purpose of birthdays- that is, making such a big deal out of them. I will be of marrying age at sixteen, so doubtless Father is going to start spending quite a bit more time this year searching for a suitable match for me. I can only hope that he'll leave me out of it as much as possible; the entire process bores me.

Additionally- for anyone who may have business with me to attend to, I will most likely be spending much of tomorrow at the royal hot springs, and will therefore be unreachable.

OOC: That last note is my way of saying that I'm moving into my dorm tomorrow and probably won't have time to obsessively check my email the way I normally do. ;)

Comments

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Why on earth would I wait until I was eighteen? It would be counterproductive.

I'm not getting married young at all.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

So, you just want to get married young to have a bunch of kids because that's the tradition in the fire Nation?

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Only one will be necessary, hopefully. And it's not because of tradition.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

Do you really see yourself as a mother, Azula?

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Of course not- I'm not going to raise the child myself; there will be servants to do that sort of thing. Though I'll over see its training, of course.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

You can't be serious, that's not the correct way to rise a child.

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I don't believe it is your place to say.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

It's not just my opinion, it's a fact.

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Well, you're certainly confident, aren't you?

Stay out of my business.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

Yes.

ooh, did I hit the spot?

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

"The spot"? No.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

You don't even know what I'm talking about, don't you?

Your brother is married?

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Not in the slightest. Care to enlighten me?

No.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

No. If you're so smart, try to understand it.

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Not understanding your idiotic insinuations hardly says anything about my intelligence.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

What intelligence? You can't even remember the easiest thing princess

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Oh, please. The fact that I didn't immediately recall a throwaway conversation of you only proves how unimportant speaking with you is.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

Keep telling yourself that. The truth is, you can't keep your promises. And you talk about honor...

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Oh, really? And when did I say that I wasn't going to keep my word?

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

You act dumb just to not to do something you don't want to do, even if you promised to do it.

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... Do you honestly think yourself so important that I remember the details of every conversation we have?

I did say that I would do it, and I will.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

Then do it, princess

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Certainly. Whenever I refer to you by name, I will use your title.

Re: 2/2

[sassygirlsrock.livejournal.com]

Now, now, you're just being difficult.

(OOC: by the way, now that I have a decent computer, do you want some new icons for Azzie? :3)

Re: 2/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Why? I'm keeping my promise, aren't I?

OOC: Oh no, I'm good. I like to use just the bases, without any words or fancy decoration. Thanks for the offer, though! <3