{FAILED LOCK}

[bentflame]

Really, the most irritating thing isn't his words. The opinions of others mean absolutely nothing; I'm certainly never lying when I say that. He'd like to think that he can get under my skin, and I'll admit that I've slipped up a couple of times in that regard- but that has been taken care of; it won't happen again. No, the most irritating thing is that he's right.

I doubt that it's fear. It would be characteristic of her, I suppose, to fear me- but for some reason, she doesn't. I also doubt that she's just "waiting to see me fall"- that could easily be done from the sidelines. It's that third theory of his that I've considered before (I hope he doesn't think for one moment that he planted the idea in my head; that I allowed him to create such an... insecurity). That she really, truly hasn't realized yet that I am a monster. At some level, I'm sure she does (why else would she have said...)- but once she starts listening to those other friends of hers; really listening to them...

Ty Lee has always been easily convinced of things.

I am a monster. I always have been. I've never denied it. But I don't know why the idea of her recognizing it and calling me out on it is so... tsk.

It's an inevitability. I shouldn't bother deluding myself into thinking otherwise.

...

That smug detective really does need to be taught a lesson.

Comments

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

 

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Your words meant nothing.

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

I didn't said anything.

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

You know what I mean.

As I said, you didn't plant the ideas in my head. Don't feel so proud of yourself.

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

I never said that I planted that ideas in your head, you're always changing my words. They were there already, I just helped a bit and made you notice them.

I'm always proud of myself.

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

No, you didn't. I noticed them a long time ago. I'm not an idiot.

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

And you was suppressing them on purpose, but it's obvious that it doesn't work anymore.

You will be more happy if you face them.

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I wasn't suppressing anything. Just because I don't write down my every idle thought doesn't mean that I haven't thought about it.

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

You thought about it, that mean that they exist. What do you think of them? They exist for a reason.

Re: yeah, why not >:3

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to talk to you in detail about this.

[Locked]

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

look, if there's something I'm really good at is is secrets. I understand that you don't want to talk to me, or her, or anyone. But you need that to be worked out before it destroys you.

Re: [Locked]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Go away.

Re: [Locked]

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

I can go, but they will remain.

Re: [Locked]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

You're wrong.

And I do talk to her.

Re: [Locked]

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

Could be.

But she don't listen, don't she?

Re: [Locked]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Re: [Locked]

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

This conversation is over then.

Re: [Locked]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

She listens.

Re: [Locked]

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

She does?

Re: [Locked]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

This conversation is over. Go away now.

Re: [Locked]

[clockmaster.livejournal.com]

Heh.

Bye princess Azula.

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