{FAILED LOCK}

[bentflame]

Really, the most irritating thing isn't his words. The opinions of others mean absolutely nothing; I'm certainly never lying when I say that. He'd like to think that he can get under my skin, and I'll admit that I've slipped up a couple of times in that regard- but that has been taken care of; it won't happen again. No, the most irritating thing is that he's right.

I doubt that it's fear. It would be characteristic of her, I suppose, to fear me- but for some reason, she doesn't. I also doubt that she's just "waiting to see me fall"- that could easily be done from the sidelines. It's that third theory of his that I've considered before (I hope he doesn't think for one moment that he planted the idea in my head; that I allowed him to create such an... insecurity). That she really, truly hasn't realized yet that I am a monster. At some level, I'm sure she does (why else would she have said...)- but once she starts listening to those other friends of hers; really listening to them...

Ty Lee has always been easily convinced of things.

I am a monster. I always have been. I've never denied it. But I don't know why the idea of her recognizing it and calling me out on it is so... tsk.

It's an inevitability. I shouldn't bother deluding myself into thinking otherwise.

...

That smug detective really does need to be taught a lesson.

Comments

[pandorabox]

Sure sounded like it.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

No. I don't complain. Complaining is childish.

[pandorabox]

I suppose you're right. Maybe you should stop dwelling on the insecurities you have over things you aren't willing to change.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... That has nothing to do with this. Besides, one doesn't just stop being a monster, even if they wanted to.

[pandorabox]

I bet you could stop. Particularly if you pinpoint the qualities that you think make you a monster and change them.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

There are things that can't be changed; can't be fixed. It's a good thing I'm quite happy the way I am.

[pandorabox]

Well then you can't say anything about Ty Lee discovering you're a 'monster' and leaving you, then.

... although I don't think she would.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... The two ideas are related, but they aren't intertwined.

Please; she's in denial. She's already decided that she had no interest in continuing our friendship once within the past couple of months, and she can easily do it again- without the inexplicable change of heart afterwards.

[pandorabox]

That's what you always tell people. But when someone reminds you of that fact, you get all upset.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I'm not upset.

[pandorabox]

Not now, anyway.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I wasn't then, either.

[pandorabox]

... sure you weren't.

Strikes = potentially hackable for the lolz

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

It's nothing to get upset about. I know the truth. She's never going to lea-

...

It's obvious that she'll eventually wise up and lea-

...

I'm not confused or ambivalent about this at all. You're wasting your time. Go away.

bwaha

[pandorabox]

She's never gonig to... what, leave you?

It's obvious that she'll eventually wise up and leave you?

You sure you're not ambivalent about this? It sounds like it.

1/2

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... I deleted that. How did you-

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[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

It doesn't matter.

[pandorabox]

I think Ty Lee has realized what you are a long time ago. I don't think she cares.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

She's in denial. It's quite obvious.

[pandorabox]

I know denial, Azu-baka. Ty Lee isn't suffering from it.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Then what do you think she's suffering from? Idiocy?

She's not stupid. It's denial.

[pandorabox]

This is going to sound so cheesy, but love maybe?

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

...

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Yes, it does sound cheesy.

[pandorabox]

Just a thought.