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Aug. 21st, 2008 09:19 am... I can still remember.
I don't know whether I want this to all go away or not. The uncertainty is ridiculous. There shouldn't be any question as to what the best path is- obviously, the memories should leave me again. Things are so much easier that way; I can completely focus my attention on winning this war, with absolutely no distractions- even temporary ones. The entire concept of wanting to "relax" sometimes was foolish from the start.
And yet...
She came to see me yesterday, just briefly, and we talked. Only about minor things really, but it was... nice.
I don't know whether I want this to all go away or not. The uncertainty is ridiculous. There shouldn't be any question as to what the best path is- obviously, the memories should leave me again. Things are so much easier that way; I can completely focus my attention on winning this war, with absolutely no distractions- even temporary ones. The entire concept of wanting to "relax" sometimes was foolish from the start.
She came to see me yesterday, just briefly, and we talked. Only about minor things really, but it was... nice.
