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[bentflame]

This is the "online" message box of Fire Lord Azula of the Fire Nation. Messages will be answered in order of importance. (Rude pictures will be deleted without exception.)



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[call]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

Yes.

[call] I DON'T THINK LILITH WANTED A NOVEL, AZULA

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

A long time ago, back when she was still my mother and long before she ever disowned me, Ursa lived in the palace with us. But Zuko was always her favorite. He was always insecure because Father and my teachers and the war counsel and my citizens knew that I was a prodigy and he wasn't-- but really, on a personal level, he was the one that everyone always liked. Ursa did, too. He was her favorite; he could do nothing wrong in her eyes, and I could do nothing right. And then she left, for him; she went to his room to say goodbye that night, but she walked right past mine. I always knew that she didn't like me much, but I never knew how much she hated me until years later, when she told the entire community: "I have no daughter. Zuko was an only child." I don't even really care anymore, but I still remember those words.

Then when I was fourteen, one of my best friends from childhood tried to kill me. She went on and on about how she couldn't wait to see my blood on her knives, and she even kidnapped my other best friend-- her other best friend-- and pretended to kill her, to try to lure me in. And it didn't take long for that second best friend to start hating me, either. She lied about a lot of things, including what she thought about me; she called me a monster and said that I was being too harsh on my father after he sent assassins after me. There was him too, of course, but he was a special case because he was my trainer, not my friend. But I trusted him.

Everyone that I've really trusted or liked, except for Lisa, has lied, betrayed, attempted murder, or left of their own volition. I know you're amazing and wonderful and probably a better person than all of them combined, but a part of me still keeps thinking that you'll do the same thing one day. Especially if people like Cross convince you that I'm not good enough to be your sister.

[call] LOL. Here I thought you went to bed or something.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

I understand. [She really does. Blow after blow like that must have been devastating to her.]

Anyone would be frightened in your position. Rest assured Cross isn't going to convince me of anything like that.

[call] at not even midnight?! surely you jest

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I don't want anyone to know. Some people have seen bits and pieces of what's happened, but I don't think anyone knows about everything.

It makes me sound paranoid.

If you couldn't love me, I don't think anyone could.

[call]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

I will not say anything. I don't think it makes you seem paranoid either.

You're hurt. It's only natural you fear being hurt again.

[call]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... I hate making you sad.

[call]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

I rather be sad than have you worrying like this. The feeling will pass.

[call]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[she's going to come look for you so she can give you a hug 8|]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

[She's just sitting in her room.]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[... knock knock knock]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

You may enter.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[sticking her head in]

Lilith?

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

[Immediately sits up.]

Hello Azula. I wasn't expecting you.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[goes over and just holds on to]

I promise I won't go anywhere.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

[Lilith hugs her.]

Don't worry about me. I'm alright.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[except she's remembering that this isn't the first time she's gotten it into her head that she should have leave Lilith alone, and she can't be positive that it'll be the last]

Do you promise?

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

I promise.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[leans up and kisses her on the cheek, then nestles against her shoulder]

I don't want you to be sad. That's all.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

I feel much better now. Thank you.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Good.

Can I stay here for a few minutes?

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

I'd like that.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Me, too.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

[Don't mind Lilith getting comfortable then.]

I'm happy you stopped by.

[emberandash.livejournal.com]

[Azula was comfortable ages ago BECAUSE SNUGGLING WITH LILITH IS AWESOME 8D]

You are?

... I wanted to make sure you were all right. You sounded really sad over the phone.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

I was concerned. That is all.

[Mostly. She was worried that she may actually lose you this time.]