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OOC: Okay, seriously, I AM SORRY FOR THE FLIST SPAM. D: Shit's going down with her (for example, in this post- have a brain-broken, completely distraught Azula, as per the series finale!), and so... yeah. And she's too "DDDD:" at the moment to realize that she didn't lock this.

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No.

She wasn't lying before, she is lying NOW. She doesn't know what she's saying. No.

Ty Lee...

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I never said I was going forever. You assumed. And you know what assuming does. I did say I was "finished" with the cuddling.

Goodbye, Ty Lee.

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Azula...

Yes?

Don't.

... I love you.

Really.

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I'd say "I love you" right now but you wouldn't believe me.

... Probably not, no.

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... I don't know what to say.

Goodbye, Azula.

What happened to "don't"?

...Well, you're going to do it anyways.

Ty Lee, you have your boyfriend. You have... that girl who's name I forget. You have lots of people. If our places were switched, and I was the one who was "breaking up with you"... you would get over it.

I won't.

Not caring about anyone is easier. It's less... messy. It'll allow me to do my job without having to worry about having a particularly bad day and not being able to bend lightning when the Avatar shows up and needs to be killed.

I could lock you up and force you to stay, but I... it would change something; I'm not sure what. And I'm not sure why it matters to me, but it does.

I'd prefer not to care at all.

...~~You're crazy.~~ [typed then deleted]

...Fine, Azula.

I can't see why you'd prefer just not to care about anyone.

But, I'm not going to change your mind.

Because it's just... easier.

There are times when I envy you. Your emotions aren't an effort, they're natural. You don't have to think about what they mean, you just know.

I still love you. I just wish...

I was trying. I was trying very hard.

I thought everyone felt like that...

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I'm sorry...

Apparently not.

I had just thought that you could... help, that's all. It was getting a bit... easier, I thought, as time went on.

Yeah...

...It was but..things change.

I just don't understand why things couldn't have stayed... normal. Forever. Even if you went to the circus, or somewhere else, it wouldn't necessarily have to mean...

If I didn't do this, maybe you would come back. Maybe we'd start over. It would take a while- longer than before- but things would start to get easier for me, and feel more natural. But then you might do this again. You've done it before, you're doing it now, you could do it in the future.

I just... I can't do that. It's too...

I can't.

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You're right, we could start over...

But. If you want to do that...I can't stop you.

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Wait. What? You-

~~No.~~

What are you talking about?

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Nevermind.

No, just... tell me what you meant.

If you don't want to start over, fine. Go ahead, do the mindwipe thing.