I just don't understand why things couldn't have stayed... normal. Forever. Even if you went to the circus, or somewhere else, it wouldn't necessarily have to mean...
If I didn't do this, maybe you would come back. Maybe we'd start over. It would take a while- longer than before- but things would start to get easier for me, and feel more natural. But then you might do this again. You've done it before, you're doing it now, you could do it in the future.
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If I didn't do this, maybe you would come back. Maybe we'd start over. It would take a while- longer than before- but things would start to get easier for me, and feel more natural. But then you might do this again. You've done it before, you're doing it now, you could do it in the future.
I just... I can't do that. It's too...
I can't.